Life was moving along as usual with work, kids , gym and just like any other day, Sunday the 1st of October 2023 was just another day in my life. I turned 51yrs old back in July and was going about with my life as usual. A round of 18 hole golf was under the books and I was back home getting ready to wind down and thought already coming and going about what lies ahead for Monday and days ahead for work, kids etc.
Sunday was also one of the days where I had only 1 meal in the morning i.e Greek Yogurt with almonds and blueberries and then for the rest of the day, a cup of tea and a gallon of water with some hydration essential mix (no sugar). I have been on this routine for 3-4 weeks and doing it few days a week. Have been challenging myself or should I say, challenging my inner-self and trying to take control of it. Will talk about this a little later or in a seperate post.
I was feeling a little weak and was not able to concentrate or focus and thought it was due to lack of food and walking 18 hole course. I did eat but my thoughts were all over the place and I started pacing around the home. I have no idea as to how long I was pacing around but while I was pacing, I felt like I was disconnecting from the reality. I was more into my inner thoughts and not really processing what I was seeing or hearing. Not sure how long I was in my thoughts but at some point I felt a rush of energy being sucked out of me, like a whirlpool or suction and it was like the dark energy within me left and when i recovered from that energy flush, I felt different. I was like in this place where i was connected with the reality, body and self i.e my thoughts and feelings and was an observer.
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